Mula sa 2011 Planner nailathala ang karamihan sa mga di makakalimutang pangyayari sa buhay ni banjela sa loob ng taong 2011. (parang hosting script lng sa PBB, hehe)

• suking reminder ang mga exams. Andaming hell weeks na natapos at na-conquer. Thank You God sa “miracle” exams, sa kape para sa pagpupuyat, sa bluebooks at calculator, sa good health (salamat at di ako ngkakasakit pg may exam), sa pagtutor saken, sa pagbangon saken pag 7am ang exam ko, sa Grace at sa knowledge. Thank You for making me realize na hindi lang acads ang buhay, na hindi punishment or some kind of condemnation ang pagbagsak sa exam. Thank You po because I believe that it is Your purpose and not just a bad consequence of my sins. I should have not dwell on my wrong deeds. Rather, I should be thankful that You want to excel on my acads.
• Thank You po sa provision Mo for our IGNITE registration and fees. Indeed, no one can outwit You. Thank You for honoring our little-but-true faith. Thank You for letting us join that event. Lord, You who enabled us to come, I pray as early as now that we can also join Ignite 2013.I claim it! Maraming salamat po for stirring our faith.
• LRP, full reports at Febfair. Thank You po dhil naenjoy ko naman sil. khit sabay sabaw silang tatlo. Thank You for the endurance.
• 17th birthday nmen ni utol. Thank You po ulet for blessing me with a kambal. I feel so proud and unique! Thank You po!
• My first year in college. Woo! akalain mo nga nman?. haha. hindi nako NF or OF. Thank You po for comforting me every time na hohome sick ako. Thank You po for letting me move on and for helping me with my social issues. Maasahan Ka talaga Lord!
• Buhay Byahero. Maraming Salamat po sa bawat byahe ko mula Lipa hanggang elbi na dinadala Nyo ung dyip/bus with Your arms. thank You din po sa pamasahe.
• 121. Thank You for giving ate Jaja and ate Hazel France to review with me the foundations of Your  Word through 121. They are blessings po. Bless them more, God!. Thank You for reminding me once again the perfect Love you showed to us through the Cross.
• 121 pa rin. Thank You rin po for Kriz and Aileen, the first persons na binigay mo to discuss 121 with. I am very grateful to be used by You. Nakaka amaze lang po How You worked with my fear and doubts before of preaching the Gospel. Wala nga pong imposible sa Inyo.
• Ate Aira.Thank You for ate Aira for being my first leader in Elbi. She is such a blessing and a challenge as well. Thank You very much for using her. I pray that You;ll reveal Yourself to her more greatly!
• Churchmates. Thank You for my Victory LB family. I love being with these people. Thank You po for all the fun times with them and for the opportunity to work with them in Your Kingdom. Thank You for the friendship and for using them to challenge my faith. I am so inspired for their love, passion and generosity. I pray that You’ll continually work amazing things upon this Church.
• KID’s ministry. Thank you for the priviledge to serve in Your Kingdom. We least deserve it Lord. It is an honor to serve You. I pray for more passion for the Kids to be granted to each of us.
• Girlie an Kuya Jerome. They are really exploding blessings to us. You are just so good and faithful to their lives and to their families. Thank You for letting me witness, befor my eyes, the wonderful works and awesome transformations You made. Thank You for their convictions and passion.
• Tuition and fees. Thank You po for faithfully providing for our financial needs. You are just amazingly faithful!. Nakakaluha po. Maraming salamat po sa paggamit Nyo kay Ate at kay Papa para iprovide ang lahat ng kelangan ko. open the floodgates of Heaven for them.Bless them for more than what they deserve. I asked for spiritual health upon them above all else, cause It is You who is our Source of everything, of joy, of peace, of amazing, unlimited abundance.
• Family. Thank You po sa bahay na inuuwian ko. I truly appreciate my family more beacause of You. Kung Hindi Nyo ako pinalayo sa family ko, hindi ko yun marrealize. Salamat po, kahit po na home sick ako. Now i know. :) aat super grateful po tlga ako sa kanila. Thank You for Mama na patiently nagpprepare palagi ng gamit ko kahit napakama pride ko na minsan, kahit napaka irresponsible kong bata. Oh God, bless the works of her hands always. Bless her according to Your riches, Father.
• Material Blessings: sa bagong TV, sa mga damit at sapatos at gamit at sofa-sofahan„sa mga pagkain na masasarap, sa internet na mas mabilis, a salamin, sa mga dekorasyo sa bahay, sa mga chepar.. marami pang iba!
• Bagong Dorm. Ng eenjoy po tlga ako ngaun sa bago kong dorm. Salamat po for letting me na makalipat. Thank You very much po for the guidance, grace, comfort.. and for the miracle na makalipat ng dorm. Thank You rin po for the new people and new roomates na nakilala ko. I pray that You’ll use me to be an angel to them. :)
• Elbi Experiences: Physics Fair,quiz con,Christmas Parties, jamming, batch dinners and many others!. I truly cherish each event. All of them is all because of Your desire na mag enjoy ako with my Youth life. Mraming Salamt po tlga!
• T4V at Victory weekend. Maraming salamat po sa proviion Mo at sa Grace for me to be one of the delegates in these events. I am so grateful God!
• 9 years in Christ. LORD, Thank You po sa faithfulness Nyo saken. You never let me go. You never gave up on me. My sins outnumber the sands on the shore and yet You love me just as the before. Walang kulang kahit ako palaging nagkukulang. Lord, I ask for more revelations from You. My Your Hand continue to work in me. You are all that I need. I want to be more and do more for You, my Highness.
• Sa LAHAT LAHAT. Sa mga breakthroughs na hindi ko nabanggit. Lahat yun ay Senyo galing. Nakaka speechless Ka Lord. Salamat po. I love You!

I had no purpose of bragging about my life. I am just a product of God’s grace. I am indeed left with nothing. And I am grateful about that. God has changed me to something new, just as He said in His Word. And I strongly believe that. Each day is a blessing from Him to which He transforms me little by little. I honestly say that I tend to be stubborn at times, refusing His gift of grace. What a foolish man I am every time I act like that. It makes me hate myself. Not until I come to realize how patient is He in teaching me true wisdom in life. How truly serious my God is in transforming this foolish self. If He is sincerely serious with me why can’t I be more serious about Him. I always disgrace His love every time I ignore Him. I’ve missed out the joy and the peace and the blessings because of my disobedience. Nakakapanghinayang.

I just can’t withhold the praises from Him. He is truly worthy of my worship. He has done so much for me and I can never deny that. Everytime I realize my unworthiness before Him, I just can’t help but be overwhelmed.. Thank You po. :) You are more than a Father to me. 

u-p-fight:

1.hindi nawawala sa meal plan mo ang mga pagkaing tulad ng pancit canton, de-lata, at siyempre SIOMAI.

2. mayroon kang naglalaparang lanyard na may nagmumurang Unibersidad ng Pilipinas na nakasulat rito.

3. alam mong ang mga nakatira sa Westbrook ang mga taong “above the poverty line” ang estado.

4.alam mong ang pamamanata tuwing Semana Santa at ang paglalakad papuntang EE Audi ay halos walang pinagkaiba. :)

5.ang mga tanline mo sa paa ay kitang-kita kahit 2 meters away (haha).

6.wala kang picture kasama si Oble (kasi camera-shy siya).

7.pag nakita mong nakapatong sa ulo ang banga ni Mariang Banga, ito na ang doomsday na hindi mo mo pinangarap.

8. alam mo ang technique para maka-access ng Facebook sa Main Lib kahit na bawal (https)

9.para sa’yo ang grade na 3.0 ay ayos, ang 2.0 ay ginto, at ang 1.0 ay milagro.

10.alam mong ang hiwagang hatid ng bonus at incentives ay higit pa sa power-up sa Super Mario.

11. handa kang ipahiya ang sarili sa klase, makapag-prerog lang.

12.kilala mo si Fr. Thor.

13.alam mong ang VetMed Dorm ay hindi lang pang VetMed students, ang Men’s Dorm ay hindi panglalaki, at ang New Dorm ay luma na.

14.Handa kang mag-welga naang dahil lang sa banga.

15.alam mong kaya maraming plants sa Elbi ay dahil narito ang mga brains. HAHA.

huweh.

silipin ang naunang blagagag. kilik hirr.

breathe.

early morning of sunday—it’s dawn.

1:52 am.

this music keeps me awake. I want to write still.

notepad, listen.

shhh. raining outside. It hasn’t stopped.

i’ll be in the church later. will be helping out in KID’s.

How should then I wake if I’ll fall asleep?

I need to be there on time.I WANT to be on time.

i want to be committed. that is my issue.

an issue God is pointing out.

I do thank Him for that.

He is real. no doubt.

real
in
His
Love.Care.Word

i would like to spend the last minute of the break.

for something better.

for something more productive.

more than to eat and to sleep.

I should have done this earlier.

Ugh, here come regrets again.

I
miss
writing.

*dramaness.eches.

I should have maximized my sem break.

eh minsan lng to

di ko pa sinulit.

hay.

I was more interested

in the useless thought

of being todo tamad mode.

Wala.
Walang nangyare.

just found this self asking.

for breakthroughs.

why don’t they come?

cause the faith is dead.

cause the eye does not see any deed.

how then breaktrhoughs happen?

to a man’s heart which has not ripen?

for this heart has been soaked with the Word for a long time

but still do not let its wall to be penetrated.

it has been calloused.

calloused by deception

by condemnation.

by accusation.

calloused by distractions.

by things of the world.

that excrete wrong worries.

what can we expect?

but a heart of resistance.

afraid, confused, isolated.

I feel like an obese.

spiritually obese.

I need some exercise.

I need to work out.

I am desperate.

but praises still ring.

to the God Who Never Fails.

He
is
merciful.
faithful.

more than such adjectives.

too complicated to describe.

for He cannot be described.

at all. never.

I need you, my Breath.

You keep on insisting.

but here such a fool.
 
an ignorant who isnabs you.

I’ve thrown You disappointments.

thousand times of failures.

Sorry.

:(

Now, I am in an asthma.

gasping artificial air.

for breath

Oh, i am desperate.

I need You, my Breath.

You are more than a Father.

thank You for the discipline.

do appreciate everything of You.

You are real.
to your Love.Care. Word.

I love You.

my God, please, never let me stay here.

I hate to be in the stagnant waters.

I want to flow.

with You.

My Rock on which I stand.

I need You, my Breath.

Please bless me indeed.

according to the riches of the Father.

You are amazing.

You are good.

You answer me according to Your perfect will.

You never weigh how much my worth.

I am worthless.

much less than an insect.

like a shadow that fades suddenly.

for You, my worth is precious.

that caused Your Son’s death.

You
are
unfair.

how could You love a fool?

such a fool I am.

“If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.”

It is You whom I found.

In my worst, You give me Best.

Thank You.
talaga po.

Sa dami nang nilalang sa mundo ang nakilala at nakasalamuha ko, marami rami na din akong naging kaibigan at kakilala. At sila, halos silang lahat, iba’t iba ang tawag saken. Sa kanila nagmula ang mga palayaw ko at malugod ko naman tong ibinabansag sa sarili ko.

Ang mga sumusunod ay hindi terms. Mga tawag lang yan  ng iba’t iba—sari-saring tao sa akin, sa nag-iisang ako.

ANJELA M. DAUSIN – ang opisyal na ngalan ayon sa birth certificate ko. Anjela ang ibinansag nina mama at papa at sa pangalang anjela din ako kilala ng madlang tao. Ito naman kasi ang generic name ko, ang palagi kong pakilala—syempre. :) Angela ang rootword ng pangalan naming tatlong magkakapatid (anjelique, anjeline at anjela). Ako na ang bunso kaya siguro saken na binigay ang “root name”. :) Pinalitan na lang ng J ang G para unique ang spelling at para naman ma-challenge  kapag isinulat sa papel.

BANJELA/BANJELAPOT– ang paborito kong palayaw. Paborito, kasi maraming natuwa. Ewan ko kung bakit. :) Ibinansag saken ang banjela ng elem classmate at seatmate ko—si candy. Natural na makulit, kalog at powertrip na babae. Hindi ko alam kung saan nya nakuha ang ideyang lagyan ng “b” ang mga simula ng pangalan ng buong barkada namen noon. Ang anjela naging banjela, anjeline naging banjelin, sharmaine naging barmeyn, jaren naging baren at candy naging beyndi. Nag-umpisang sumikat ang banjela nang gamitin ko tong username sa sikat na sikat at pinagkakaguluhang social network nung kapanahunan ko—friendster. Pumapasok ako dati nung highschool na may bigla na lang na babati saken ng banjela o banjelapot. Kaya ayun, ngkaroon ng kapatid ang palayaw na banjelapot. Lapot na naging Labo.

LABO/LAPOT- si ate lang naman ang tumawag saken nito. Bale, sa bahay lang ako minsang nakilala ng ganito. Labo ko daw kasi kausap sabi ni ate. Kaya pati yung kakambal ko, nadamay na din. Kung may anjelabo, may anjelinaw.

JELAY- ang anjela ng uplb. Sa totoo lang, sanay talaga akong magpakilalala sa totong pangalan ko. Kaya anjela tlga ang tawag sakin ng mga unang taong nakilala ko sa elbi.Kaso aun, andami ko palang kapangalan dun. Sa isang large lecture class nung NF ako, mga apat ata kaming “angela”. Eh isa sa mga katukayo (kapangalan) ko, ka close ata nang lecturer nmen kaya laging tinatawag sa mic. Taz ako nman, since freshman pa ako nun, laging kinakabahan kung ako ba ung pina parecite nya.hehe.Hindi lang twing large class ako nabibiktima ng mga kapangalan ko. Kahit sa block nmen, may mga sound-alike-angela. Minsan nga, namomodify na ung pangalan ko. Kung hindi Angel ang tawag nila, nagiging Angelica….kaya aun, sinimulan kong iprogram ang utak at bituka ko na JELAY na ang pangalan ko. nakakatawa lang. mas naging distinct specie ako nung naalala nila ung jelay. no more confusions.:)

CHE-CHE- alam mo ung cheche bureche sa bubblegang? aun un. Dahil may bureche kami dito sa bahay sa katauhan ni anjeline. Gayang-gaya nya eh. Syempre di nya magagaya si bureche kung wala syang maarteng kapatid na aawayin. At ako un, si che-che.

MAMAE- ang ma-alamat na palayaw ko. Ito ang paslit,yagit na batang si anjela. Marami pa rin ang tumatawag saken ng ganito sa bahay. Mga pinsan, tito, tita at lola. Mamae daw kasi,… Nung unang panahon, ella mae talaga ang ni-request na palayaw ng ninang ko. Eh si anjeline daw hindi mabigkas ang ella, mae lang.. Dahil bata kami nun, lagi kaming nag-aaway.Dalawang sumbungerang magkapatid. Kaya laging bigkas ni anjeline: “Ma!si mae!”. At dito nagsimula ang pag-usbong ko bilang ”Ma-mae”.

PIKAK- hindi ko alam ang dahilan kung bakit peacock ang tawag sakin ni avick. Ewan ko talaga. Sinimulan nya akong tawaging peacock nung niregaluhan ko sya ng sintas na iba’t ibang kulay nung birthday nya.Nagrarubber shoes na pala ang peacock. I wonder.

JEJELA - ang tawag naman sakin ni Sefora-isang kaibigan mula sa una kong dormitoryo sa Ilag’s. Mga panahong kausuhan ang jejemon.

JELLEY- ang bigkas ng mga (vet med dorm)roomates sa palayaw ko. Hindi dahil type lang nila gawing slang ung Jelay. Hindi rin dahil natural na Waray ung isa. Paano kasi, Jelen ang pangalan nung isa naming kasama. Aun. Napapaghalo nila. Ganun.

BUDDY - dalwa ang tumatawag sakin ng buddy. Una yung elem classmate ko, si Ethel (fita naman ang tawag nya kay utol, dahil ako si Buddy biscuit!) naging partner ko nung girlscout camping. Dahil camp un, kami ang buddes, ang bodyguard ng isa’t isa. naulit ang tawagang buddy ngayong college. The same concept. Si buddy Romae (isang kaibigan at dormmate) nman ang body guard ko, hindi sa isang camping. Sa field trip lang to. Dito lang din sa Laguna. How sophisticated.

Jel - ang pinaikling ngalan ng jelay na pinaikling ngalan na anjela. Courtesy of Mia.